i turned thirty in september. here are my thoughts on the matter.
+ now that i'm thirty i know better; life goes on after high school, toddlers are way more awesome than i once imagined. marriage is much better than dating. fresh minced garlic is good sauteed with almost anything. surprises are still super fun. you never get sick of balloons. or confetti. or handwritten letters. or bananas with peanut butter.
+ now that i'm thirty i ought to have a regular bedtime.
+ now that i'm thirty i thought i would've outgrown sugar cereals by now.
+ now that i'm thirty paying more for fine dining, lush stationery, crusty bread straight from a bakery shop or having an expert vacuum out the car are luxuries i'll never take for granted.
+ now that i'm thirty i am sinking into who i am and what i stand for.
+ now that i'm thirty i want to write my stories down for safekeeping. i am realizing more and more how important our personal stories are. whenever i sit down with my parents, dan's parents or his grandma bernice and listen to their tales, i want to wrap the feelings i have up in a linen box and save it for generations to come.
+ now that i'm thirty i think i should seriously start wearing glam lipstick. if not now, when? i recently picked up nars velvet matte lipstick pencil in cruella. we'll see where it takes me. (benji kept saying, wow mom, pretty red lips.)
+ now that i'm thirty i am excited about planning kid parties which is lots less stress than planning a wedding.
+ now that i'm thirty i should have a boatload of good books to recommend at book club.
+ now that i'm thirty i shouldn't be fearful to raise my hand. in any situation.
+ now that i'm thirty i count my blessings; so many people are suffering hardships like disease, death, depression and divorce. i feel unbelievably lucky.
+ now that i'm thirty i've mastered the art of cleaning out my fridge (tossing unidentifiable leftovers), figuring out how to hook-up the internet, get stains out, organize important paperwork, know where our passports are (at all times), book a flight, paint my nails without a smudge, juggle a baby, a cell phone and a pot of pasta at once among other fine things that come with being a housewife.
+ now that i'm thirty i should write letters to the teachers of my past; ones i think of often and appreciate.
+ now that i'm thirty i understand a wee bit more that we are not in control of what happens to us or our loved ones. we are only in control of how we react on the road we are traveling.
+ now that i'm thirty i think i ought to have a few recipes memorized. and some poetry. (and my mom's new phone number!) just to have on hand / in mind.
+ now that i'm thirty i wish i were better at giving directions. i'm horrible at it!
+ now that i'm thirty i need to start acting more like a woman. more thank you notes and kindly deeds. more lipstick and heels. and good haircuts. and making soup for the sick and holding doors and visiting the elderly and looking semi-presentable by noon.
+ now that i'm thirty i should start embracing the fact that this blog is more writerly than anything else. and i shouldn't be shy about mentioning it; but admittedly it's a funny topic of conversation to someone you've just met. usually i just let them discover it about me along the way. what about you? when do you tell someone you have a blog? it's a little like unveiling a hidden tattoo.
+ now that i'm thirty i should have a list of real favorites. nine year olds are pretty solid in their favorites. we'll see if i can patch an updated list together.
+ now that i'm thirty i should stop wavering about getting into facebook. most people tell me it's not worth it. what do you think? do you use it; personally or for business? i guess i like to think i'm using my energy elsewhere. (maybe when i'm thirsty for new business, i'll go that route.)
+ now that i'm thirty i am super glad i never got any random piercings.
+ now that i'm thirty i ought to acquire a legit coffee table. with glossy coffee table books.
+ now that i'm thirty i've embraced the concept of the purse. whole-heartedly.
+ now that i'm thirty i am cool with being short. still not so cool with my cankles.
+ now that i'm thirty i wish i had been a better friend. i was a drama queen when i was on the playground.
+ now that i'm thirty i am grateful with my travelogue thus far and can't wait for the time to come to introduce my kids to the world with dan by my side.
+ now that i'm thirty i've stopped looking for facial cleansers; cetaphil pretty much does the job.
+ now that i'm thirty i ought to quit thinking i was just in high school. it was indeed awhile ago; i just can't believe i pass as a grown up now.
+ now that i'm thirty i'm so glad i took creative writing in middle school, cub chorus in elementary school, public speaking in high school and photoshop in college. i use what i learned in those classes every single day.
+ now that i'm thirty i wonder what the next thirty years have in store.