15 February 2008

mama thoughts: 01


wow.
grazi.
merci.
thank you for all the love.
for the comments, the emails.
it made my valentine's day complete.
already this tiny babe is bringing in so much love. i can hardly believe it.

other than thinking about becoming a mom, realizing we are really truly having a baby, going to giving birth, bring it home, and start a family, my life has been pretty much the same as usual. which means it has been flipped upside down; in such a subtle way. now my life just has more. like more daily vitamins. lots more sleep. more food. more saltines, that's for sure. more glasses of milk too. more reading. more trips to the new section of the library: pregnancy. (woah. for reals. i am like in the club now.) more doctors. more excitement. more giddiness. more nervousness. more extreme happiness. more love.

we even got to see it the other day and take a glimpse at it's tiny heart that was beating like the flapping wings of a butterfly. the ultrasound was magic. my smile equaled dan's as we watched the short movie in utter amazement. i was only ten weeks at the time, but still it's arms and legs were dancing a jig. so tiny. so unbelievably cool.

telling people has made the experience even more fabulous. just seeing the reactions on my family members' faces was bliss. i wanted to truly surprise everyone. and then like a flood after a rainstorm, an abundance of more love and more support poured in. the day after we announced our news, two sisters (independently) brought bushels of books to my doorstep and notes of encouragement. such a happy happy time of life. and though there was a moment in life when i wondered if i'd ever feel ready for motherhood, i realize that i feel more ready than ever before. especially with so many supporters on our side.

finding out you're pregnant is a bit like how it might feel to sign up for a marathon. you're not sure quite how you'll be able to manage it. you've never participated in one before. but you want to. you're dying to have the experience. your sisters have done it three or four times! you're not sure if the horror stories are true, but you're quite sure the glory stories are. you hope you'll experience the awe. you've signed up, you're motivated, you're determined. it's gonna happen. you prepare, you train, you get your body ready. you know the date will arrive sooner than you think. you will run your heart out. you will be your best self. you will survive.

which does not mean i am not scared and nervous for the unknown. i just feel excited. like it's an incredible adventure. like it's my time for this new beginning. i am a big believer in timing. timing is everything. therefore, i know that the upcoming graduation, the upcoming move to idaho, the upcoming new job, the upcoming bar exam, the upcoming baby, the upcoming 'dynamic family change', the upcoming complete change of life is all happening in it's right season, for a reason.
i hope to make the most of this incredible opportunity.
and run with it.
and enjoy the moments.
and learn to become a good mama.
am glad there are so many of you out there with expertise.
i am going to need good coaching.

23 comments:

Kim said...

I am a first time mama. Very overwhelmed at first, less overwhelmed now. You will love it!

ievute said...

Marta, I'm so happy for you it's even hard to find words :)
I wish you happyness. lots of it! To all THREE OF YOU( that sounds cool, doesn't it?!)

Do you already eating dozens of pickles? :)

Dansie Family said...

i've seen you and dan with my kids and i need YOUR coaching. you two are going to be the best parents. i just hope that i can be a good aunt like you are to my three.

Andrea said...

All your thoughts are wonderful to read. It reminds me of when I first found out I was expecting (over 3 years ago). I am a true believer that God gives us 9 months to prepare us for motherhood. You will be ready then and you will be wonderful.

Kate said...

what a lovely post. I am truly so excited for you - motherhood is the sweetest experience!

the hogan's said...

congrats mart! love you and am so excited for you!

andrad said...

Loved reading this post - so many real and fabulous emotions. Beautifully written.
Hope you don't mind me checking in now and then...
I have 5 year old twins (a boy and a girl) so I might be able to offer a tiny bit of 'coaching' if you ever do need it. :)

gab said...

This is funny. I have just been putting together a care package of my favorite books. Great minds think alike, huh. Oh well...I will still send, just pass on the duplicates...we're all just sooooo excited!

{natalie} said...

i loved having my sister in laws to help me out w/being a first time mama (i have no sisters) you will be wonderful and loving and i'm so excited for you to have the moments that moms do.

Marty said...

What a lucky baby you are having!

Anonymous said...

Congratulations Marta! I couldn't be more happy for you and Dan. And just like everything else that you do, you are going to be a wonderful mama--and I'm so happy because now you get to be a teacher--the most important kind. Love, Ms. Ed.

Krista said...

I don't know if anyone's told you about whattoexpect.com but I have loved getting their daily emails giving me a bit of info of what's going on with the little being inside. Hope you're feeling well!

Rachel Swan said...

First of all, congrats! I am so excited for you and your family! I was really touched by your post and I quoted part of it on my blog. I made sure that it links back to your blog, but if you want to check it out and make sure everything is ok, that would be great. Just comment if there is anything wrong and I'd be happy to either take it down to change it.
rachelswandesign.blogspot.com

the mama monster said...

Marta- I am so excited for you!!! I check your blog all the time but haven't been on the computer all weekend and missed your first post. Congrats! I am due at the end of august too. You will be such a wonderful ,fun and creative mama.
Jackie

Jessica said...

This was really great to read. I'm a bit of a scaredy-cat when it comes to change, so just knowing that there are people who can see the wonderful in it helps shore up my nerves for those times when they are a bit shaky. Super big congratulations again.

KJ said...

it's not as horrible as people say. It's not easy, but I've found little M to be way more accomodating and much less demanding than most of my past employers. Plus he's in general much sweeter and cuter and lots more fun. You'll be fine. Everyone finds their "mommy-legs" eventually. Embrace the new path. (check out "you are my I love you" book by Maryann Kusimano, children's book)

Chelsey said...

I read a lot of books when I was pregnant, mostly nursing books and when Noah was born and it was finally time... my mind went blank! "What do I do?" I thought, thank heavens for the amazing nurses at the hospital! Email me your address I want to send you something. chawski82@gmail.com

cheeky said...

simply love the thoughts you share.
you are already equipped with the most powerful tool yet. a positive and welcoming attitude to handle whatever is passed you way. thanks for always sharing your joys and for your honesty. it is of the sweetest kind.
your life plate is full. im certain you are going to savour all of it.
i feel giddi for you.
xo

Kris said...

Congrats! What a fun V-day announcement, I'm super happy for you and the thrill of anticipation!

love.boxes said...

You are going to be a great mom because the things babies and people need most is just love and you will be perfect at that. :)

Pedaling said...

Marta, that is so cool, i had no idea. Congratulations - this is such a happy, happy time!

Lorilee said...

marta.. congrats on the new little one! I loved reading this post. It's so fun to read the perspective of other pregnant moms. I also have a little one coming in June....and can't be more excited.

WyniaFamily said...

Read the Baby Whisperer. You will be happy you did. And you will have time for you. Which for me, makes me a better mom.

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