09 September 2008

newborn life in my lap

oh my goodness.
where do i begin.
how do i even begin to put into words the whirlwind of love that has suddenly fallen into my lap. i really had no idea how wonderful it would all be. they tried to tell me and they will try to tell you. but i could not comprehend it. until now.

the sound of him stretching, the wrinkles on his forehead with the change of expressions, his teeny toes, those little busy hands. my baby boy is beautiful and the light he has brought into my life is immeasurable and my eyes are opened; a glimpse at what this world of motherhood has in store for me. my heart feels like it has ballooned in size.

life is suddenly brand new again. my daily life (and nighttime too) is now divided into portions. life is more simple and sweet and basic. while he sleeps and while i should be napping i find myself just gazing at my boy. i want to juice these moments and savor them because they tell me they don't last. and they are more magic than i'd ever imagined them to be. i am totally enamored.

the whole becoming a mom process has thankfully felt so natural. as if it was within me all this time. i'm the same me, yet completely renewed. these days i am perfecting my swaddling technique every few hours, i am swaying back and forth whether he's in my arms or not, am singing songs that i haven't sung in years, am reading a new pile of parenting books from my coffee table, am heaping a mound of baby clothes in my hamper and uploading 200+ newborn photos into iphoto. and the boy is only two weeks old. yet he has already changed everything. i see that change is exactly what i needed. a change of pace. a change of scenery. a change of heart. i thought i was prepared. but i had no idea that this change would come equipped with such beautiful big bright eyes that could melt a mama's heart.



this pose is what i call upsidedowncakes. benji spent the better part of the afternoon in my lap. he is pure sunshine.

{am wondering how this blog will ever go back to normal. for now, please excuse my gushing. for a li'l more me check out my interview with the incredible miss tip junkie. thanks again for the opportunity laurie!}

34 comments:

TravelinOma said...

Every mom is a full-time mom. Once you give your heart away, your life follows, and you're swept away. You wrote the emotions beautifully.

One Love Photo said...

Oh man, I think reading our sweet words and looking at your CUTE blue eyed boy is going to convince me that I really should give this motherhood thing a try. I get so scared thinking about the changes it will bring but you make me see the good parts, the sweet spot. Thank you so much. Happy Baby to YOU!

Ashley said...

What a beautiful entry. I love your thoughts that you shared with us on motherhood. It makes me even more excited to have some of my own someday.

Kate said...

My oh my he is a cute baby. I just want to eat him up. I know exactly what your saying though. It's so hard to explain the love your feel for your child, but you did a wonderful job.

Christie said...

Looking at that picture of little Benji makes me want to jump in the car and come smell his yummy neck. Does it smell as good as it looks? He is so beautiful.

And so are you. Very beautiful words. Welcome to the greatest club in the world.

Anonymous said...

hi marta, I love reading your blog, and have loved looking at your son's gorgeous pictures! He really is precious, and you are absolutely right that motherhood changes everything about you. enjoy that new sweet baby of yours!

gab said...

It's like your whole life you have just been practicing for THIS! He is perfect...that picture took my breath away!

Jessica said...

Beautiful! What a sweet photo you have there and I can't wait to see the 200+ you've uploaded. :)

Jamie said...

What a beautiful post, and what an adorable baby. Thank you for sharing your journey into motherhood with us.

skye truax said...

everything you write is just so lovely. the interview was very inspirational for me. i always appreciate when you post a little bit of advise, because it puts a little pep in my step. thank you. and yes... he is just spendid!

Kim said...

Ah, if you're anything like me, the gushing won't stop. We moms can't help ourselves.

Thank you for your beautiful words.

Erin Glee said...

Beautiful entry about your experiecing Motherhood for the first time. You described what my experience was like, except for the tears of joy I would get....usually after my heart did the "balloon" thing I would feel so full and overwhelmed with happiness that it usualy ended up leaking out my eyes... (but maybe that was just sleep deprivation in action)!
Much love to you!

Claire, said...

So tender.

Kristin said...

your post is beautiful! and Benji is absolutely delicious! what a beautiful baby boy! Congratulations again!!

Chelsey said...

Love it. I felt the same way when my boy was born. Glad you are enjoying it so much. I think everyday just gets better and better, he is such a cutie!

100 Percent Cottam said...

it always amazes me when mamas transition to motherhood so gracefully - mine was more like baptism by fire and i was a MESS! so glad you're doing so well and enjoying it. i'm hoping to do that this time...you know, on the THIRD baby! :)

allison said...

"oh my goodness" in a high pitched voice is what i say over and over when i see pictures of him.

.caroline armelle. said...

many congrats to you and your beautiful boy! you sure are a natural mother already..

wunderbug said...

he's got such a sweet face!

amy said...

oh my gosh he is so cute marta. like he is so cute.

Angie said...

Awww, so happy for you :-)

love.boxes said...

m.. he is just so beautiful!

AnneMarie said...

it's the best, isn't it??
my bundle in my lap turned 4 weeks yest!

Jen Anderson said...

just beautiful, words, mamma and baby!

ryan & sara said...

Congrats Marta! He is adorable. I think he looks like his mama. I'm so happy for you guys. Aren't new babies amazing? Tell Benji that Lucy says hi.

jo said...

oooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, he is so perfect and so adorable!

a big, big hug for you dear marta :)

Megan said...

Oh marta. That is so amazing! I love hearing about him and you. what an incredible journey you have begun. you have shed a whole new light on the subject for me. im grateful for you. :)

Annie said...

Marta, he is absolutely darling!!! Congrats:) Slurp it all in, cause as I'm sure you've been told over and over, they grow up WAY too fast!

Diana Hulme said...

He's the cutest. I can't wait to follow in your steps...

Heather said...

Reading all your baby entries makes me SOO happy and excited for me to have my baby! It's a little scary to me just thinking about it, even though I do know it's going to be the happiest time in my life, but after reading your posts it helps me be more confident. Thanks!

andBABYmakesFOUR said...

Gushing is expected and allowed. Please, gush all you want. That part doesn't change. You have become an official GUSHER from now on...

Still waiting for mine. 39 weeks today and can't go a minute longer. This waiting is he hardest part!
Luckily, I have my 2 year old to remind me of how "worth it" it is -this time.

james and natalie said...

this one is my fave. you can put all of my feelings into the written word better than anyone. thanks for that.

Kim said...

Gush all you want...he is beautiful....you are savoring every second...and that's exactly what you are supposed to do.
Thankyou for reminding me of those amazing moments of newborness....

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