13 November 2008

the way he sees it.

so while i was chopping up a red pepper and trying to scrape out the seeds like they show you on the kitchen shows, my wee li'l one was kickin' it in his li'l infant seat. just the two of us in the kitchen, cooking up a storm.

he was cooing and bouncing and becoming the big boy i've learned to never take my eye off of, not because i'm a worried spazzy first time mom (well maybe kind of) but because he is growing by leaps and bounds. truly, everytime i think, oh i love this, i never want him to change, than he does and it's so cute that i'm totally okay with it and have forgotten what the last stage was like. and i have completely spaced what being pregnant feels like. i suppose there are so many moments that you want to savor that you end up letting go of others. i have never held any two months of my whole life as this precious. it's unbelievable.

but the whole reason i was blogging this episode was to say how awesome it was.. so there i was slicing and dicing and he was hanging out staring at his li'l clenched fist. he was looking at his left arm so intently, just figuring it out. deciphering what this striped long sleeve was, this tiny 5 fingered device. he had made a discovery. i was not only thrilled to pieces, but it gave me new insight on looking at the world through a child's eyes. with earnest intent and bright wide eyes.

11 comments:

KJ said...

It's all so fascinating to watch, isn't it? Now he's thinking "what can I DO with this 5 fingered device in stripes?" As for remembering what being pregnant feels like: fascinating and bleh, at the same time.

Molly said...

beautifully said. watching them grow is very exciting and a little sad at the same time.

right after i gave birth i said "... and people do that MULTIPLE times...???" now I completely understand why:)

Nicole Marie said...

its amazing just watching babies figure out new things. its just fascinating

Sarah said...

And so much more discovery to come! (My god son has recently 'discovered' that he can wee all over the carpet if he wriggles free at nappy time... brilliant!)

Daisy said...

You know what I love about your blog? You won't ever forget these moments that in quick time really are so easy to forget because you write and you express your feelings and you do it so beautifully.

The Robinsons said...

You put it so eloquently and I totally know what you mean...I never want Hannah to make it to the next milestone, and she seems to be going through them so quickly, but after she makes a new discovery about herself, I make a new discovery about myself as a mother! Milestones are the most exciting and heartbreaking thing for us mothers...to watch our children grow is fascinating, but also sad because it feels like they are slowly moving away from us! I bet you are an amazing mother!
Nichole
P.S. Are you still living in Utah or did you move?

Megan said...

Oh marta. i love that. i love hearing about your experiences with Benji. I can just picture it perfectly. (thanks to your amazing writing)

crystal said...

I've wrote about this before. I just have to tell you again how much your first time mommy experiences with your little boy remind me of my first mommy days. It takes me right back. I would pull my guy from that mean old first grade classroom, and rewind into time to the days where I could hold him all day and be the one to love and teach him. (Putting the foul mouthed kids on the bus out of buisness!)Hold your Benji close and savor this time!

Allie said...

What a lovely image of a child learning to see.

sarah said...

oh, i know that feeling. i swear, the first month after my son was born, it was all i could do to take my eyes off of him, for fear of missing anything. i never understood the magic of life until he was born, and now i experience it every day. truly amazing.

naomi megan. said...

you know, this is one of my favorite posts i've ever read. how beautiful the way you look at motherhood! your little boy sure is lucky to have a mom like you. so exciting!

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