05 January 2009

smile because it happened.


some things are over.

2008. so many good memories wrapped up in one very happy year.

the holidays. the presents are unwrapped. the ornaments are boxed up. the hustle & bustle is over. all the sugar plums have been eaten. santa has closed up his shop for the season.

it's true, somedays i get sad when i think of the parts of my life that are already over.. my childhood, my wedding day, the carefree feeling of school, days when recess was not an option, going on outings with my grandparents, slumber parties and saturdays at the mall, our newlywed days in provo, the hot summer months of youth just lying by the pool, talking late into the night with my siblings, living close to the beach...

and now here i am in my lovely grown up life and my newborn is growing so fast. benji is holding his neck up, flexing his legs and wanting to stand on my lap, laying on his tummy like a pro and clutching toys like nobody's business. i cannot believe he was so tiny and fragile only months ago and although, in a way he still is, now his personality is bubbling over, his smiles are contagious and he is this full on little person growing like a weed. i wish i could capture every bit of it up into jars to line up in my storage room for reminiscing someday in the future when i grab his teenage gym socks from the dryer and remember his itty bitty baby socks that fit in the palm of my hand.

oh i could talk about him forever.

i appreciate your feedback on my survey. i enjoyed reading your goals and other thoughts. many of you said that you think i'm an optimistic, cheerful type of girl and wonder how i got that way. thank you.. i think my real sarcastic silly self gets little air time. anyway i never really thought of it much before. my parents are sparkly people with eyes full of hope. they were always out to celebrate the ordinary and made me feel like my two lines in the high school play were worthwhile and wonderful.

i suppose you can wallow in wishing for the past to return, to rewind and replayed again and again. or you can move on and enjoy this moment, before it too will be only a memory. enjoy the present. the right now. before it is all gone. happy new year. happy new you.

as for me, i must be off. my li'l boy has woken up from a nap and is hoping i'll come rescue him. although we replay his routine over and over every day i realize it won't be like this forever. someday he'll be running around as a li'l bundle of energy. and a cuddle for his mama will be far and few between..

12 comments:

Megan said...

I love this quote-and it's so true, about many things in life. Thank you for the reminder :)

Julia said...

I needed thoughts like this today. I have a 2 month old, and as the newborn days are overwhelmingly unpredictable and hard for a planner like me, I tend to wish them away. But you're right. It won't last forever and enjoy this moment is the answer to a bad perspective.

Thanks!

marti said...

just wanted to write you a quick THANK YOU ...i love reading your blog and always enjoy your pics...add more!! you always make me think of things in a new way or see something differently...i am not a writer, but want to become one for my children (ages 1,2 and 3) and for myself... so much of my life has flown by, i want to remember this special time as a mother- thank you for inspiring me!

Samosas for One said...

Nice post

christine said...

nice thoughts--thanks.

Courtney said...

As always, such a beautiful and insightful post.

I know country music gets such a lame wrap from so many people, but sometimes the songs say it like no other. I am seriously throwing myself out by admitting I listen to it, I know, but if you haven't ever heard it, you should check out "You're Gonna Miss This," by Trace Adkins. It speaks to what your wrote about, and, although it's been out for a while, it almost always still brings a lump to my throat when I hear it.

Happy New Year, Marta! Hope 2009 is as charming for you as 2008 seemed to be.

summer said...

so many good thoughts wrapped up in one post!
I really, really loved this one, marta. I needed to hear that quote & be reminded to live in the present. And I always enjoy hearing your "with child" musings.

Laura said...

I'm not sure where I found your blog but now I check in almost every day. You have such nice way of saying things. I love "days when recess was not an option", it makes me want to implement recess again!

P.S. said...

Love you Mart. Love your writings, love your love of good quotes, love your way of looking at things, love those two lines in the school play and all the memories behind them.

Thanks for this post. Is it redundant now to say I loved it?

amy said...

you are putting it into jars dear. and so beautifully. my blog is a terrible display of all my longings for the past. haha. you know that. you get me and i'm just beginning to get it.

TravelinOma said...

You'll always remember these days of Baby Benji. The sad part is HE won't remember!

Suzie said...

I simply adore this post.
Reminds me that the things I've spent time and energy on in my home are worthwhile...
just finished a load of whites and folding my teenage boy's socks. He is still as sweet as ever but miss his baby socks tremendously.

have fun with Benji!

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