15 August 2008

oh baby.


are there words for the way you feel before you deliver a baby? if so, they are not in this girl's pocket. i want to record how i feel, but i've found it's near close impossible. i just lay on my pillow when the sun rises through the slats of our blinds and i suddenly remember about my boy and the belly. and the closeness of his due date and smile with contentment. that this is all happening. i am unbelievably excited and giddy and nervous and calm and mostly just supremely happy. the feeling i feel is blessed.

though after all our nine months of preparations, i can still scarcely believe a li'l baby is going to enter this world. our world. and he's going to be ours. wow. that's huge. so grandly complex and yet so simple too.

any day now he'll arrive and he'll be right here in my arms. and i'll have become a mama. anticipating this event is truly so thrilling. i wish i could find the words to describe it. this elation. this joy of being on the ledge of life. kind of like the week before christmas when you were six years old, times that by one thousand, but still, it's way better than that.

and when i call anyone and they see the caller id and they lift up the phone with expectation in their voice, it's a pretty sweet thing to hear; this joy is contagious. and he's not even outside of me yet. i can hardly wait to meet him and witness his introduction to the world and yet i'm soaking up each itty bitty moment before he arrives. and cleaning like crazy and listening to a lot of canon in d. (and yes, don't worry, i'm getting some rest too.)




39 comments:

100 Percent Cottam said...

i must say, lady, you look pretty amazing for almostdueanymoment! wowzers! i'm about your size and i've got over 2 months left to go! :) i'm so excited to hear about the journey these next few weeks as you experience becoming a mama. what a blessing!

Heather said...

WOW! That really is SOO exciting!

ellen said...

Your blog makes me smile.

misti said...

My niece was born a week and a half ago and I got to spend a few days holding her. Wow, wow, wow. It was such an awesome feelings and the maternal instincts were coming out like crazy.

I love the photo of the shadow on the floor. Very cool!

Megan said...

You look great! I always feel so peaceful when reading your writings about the upcoming babe. You ARE truly blessed and it's so wonderful that you are able to take time out and enjoy the moment. I hope that one day soon I will be in your shoes!

EliseBlaha said...

oh, my love.

that last photo is fantastic.
i am so excited for you.

and just a wee bit jealous that THIS WEEK you will become a mama.

Quelly said...

You still look SO adorable! Pregnancy definitely agrees with you. Was the picture of the shadow taken on a different day than the first picture? You look like you have dropped in the shadow picture-a sure sign that things are moving into place!

I am so excited for you!!!!

onesouthernbelle said...

Any day now!! Various readers are excited about the arrival. Please keep us updated!

Jessica said...

Oh by the way, don't forget to save the cord blood! :)

marta said...

quelly, crazy enough the photos were taken on the same day! the shadow emphasizes my baby belly. i do hope he's ready to come real soon!

Kelly McClorey said...

a true true blessing! i am so excited for you and will wait and check and check again my bloglines to see your news : ) thinking of you...sending love and wishing all goes well. xxx

kati said...

congrats and best, best wishes!

melissa deakin said...

oh my goodness...look at your mama beautifulness.
you are just beaming and of course your words are perfect.
i am so happy for you and i love all these photos today.
thinking of you...

polly said...

you look beautiful!

alyson. said...

wow, Marta! any day now!! I bet your mountain man is just as excited and hope his little man will love those mountains too!

christina said...

How exciting, Marta! I love the way you put your feelings into such beautiful words.

Heed said...

Your nursery looks so welcoming, Min! It's so great to have those nesting instincts boost your house cleaning energy! I can't believe you are already at 39 weeks! Way to go. Each day he is inside does wonders for his development. I'm so excited for you!

Kerry said...

It's true about the fun, expectant tone in people's voices when they pick up your phone call. My sister is having Baby #3 any day now. And the best part is that I know if she's having a boy or girl, but she doesn't! It's my secret -- well, mine, Baby's and the ultrasound tech's.

Annie said...

oh, enjoy these last expectant days. delicious. i'm one of those crazies who actually enjoy childbirth so...enjoy that too!

love the shadow photo.

dee said...

marta,

and your life will be changed forever... in the most remarkable of ways.. enjoy every second

Jen Anderson said...

You are just beautiful! This is one lucky little boy to have a mamma like you! Good luck ;)

sunny said...

beautiful photos. you are the picture of an expecting mama!

*I love canon in D. great choice of music to listen to!*

A friend of mine heard that when you are close to/entering labor...you want to cozy up your nest..so you clean like crazy - those deep cleaning jobs that usually get put off.

Well...she knew it would happen close to labor, and wanted labor to happen, so she began a cleaning frenzy - to bring on labor already!

I smiled at my friend and her logic. But it really wasn't long until she really did have her son!

I'm sure it won't be long for you either!!

kaylene said...

My son was born a month early and I have always thought I was SO glad to have skipped that last month of long forever waiting... but this was such a beautifully written perspective, it kinda makes me hope the second one someday decides to take its time :)

Lovebird said...

You look wonderful, congratulations.

jess said...

so gorgeous dear marta. oh, how your life will change in the next few weeks... i am so excited for you! soak it all in, the time will fly!

em said...

wow. i found your blog just as you announnced you were with the babe. it seems like only days ago. you must be so excited!

Whatever Dee-Dee wants said...

I cant even imagine your excitement, I am 12 weeks away from my due date and I am going crazy with excitement!

Good luck!

Krista said...

The nursery looks darling and I'm sure you're ready to meet this lil boy. That belly looks good on you.

gab said...

I think I'm more excited than you...if that is possible.

Probably because I don't have that whole labor and delivery thing hanging over my head.

Allison said...

Wait until he gets here. There really are no words eloquent enough for the way you feel about meeting your baby for the first time.

mama jo said...

you look so beautiful..your nursery looks darling..i'm so glad you got your license..you can legally be a mom now...just kidding..

whit said...

Mart you look amazing and so adorable. The nursey is perfect for the baby boy...can't wait

Christine said...

Oh wow, you look amazing, love the last photo of your shadow :)
Looking forward to hearing baby news soon.

Megan said...

You look Awesome!! And you are truly amazing.
i love reading your thoughts!
Miss you!

amy said...

girl you are preg nant.

love.boxes said...

Your baby room is soo perfect!

One Love Photo said...

wow what a great shadow image. I am excited for your baby and you. So sweet.

Nance said...

I love the picture of your belly's shadow in the nursery. So cute! Hope everything goes well for you. So exciting!

summer said...

oh my, oh my! these photos are darling.
how cute you are. if anyone can handle a photo shoot during their pregnancy- it's you!
i'm having such fun going back through your "before benji" time. i love reading all the gearing up stories.

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